Grief and Loss
If you ever lost a partner, who have loved you, you know how difficult it is to go on your life. It is a serious wrenching pain that seems to rip you so that you do not deal with daily activities. When my husband died, very unexpectedly, I wanted to die. Did not want to go alone. My soul seemed as dead as he was, there was no reason to continue living, the meaning of my life was gone.
After the first day of the funeral (which I remember little of it) was finished, I was with a hole in my heart that can not be filled on the left. Friends and families back in their normal, everyday life, when I was empty, with a closet full of clothes and worry about how I wanted both financially and emotionally to survive. I ate very little, no point in the kitchen with no one to cook. There was no joy – it was not by the door, never, and I never see her smile and hear her laugh.My birthday came and went five days after his death, the grandfather clock, he had delivered the day before he died, my gift was a constant reminder schedule, but I enjoyed it. (more…)
